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PIECES OF HEART - Part 1


Can't move

Can't feel

Can't see

Only darkness and void

And the fire inside...


All that is left are

Pieces of heart

Cripples of thought  

Flashes of dreams that died

And the fire inside


WISH I'D HAD THE GUTS TO ASK YOU THAT NIGHT.

TO ASK YOU OUT THAT NIGHT

WISH I'D HAD ASKED YOU TO SPEND THE NIGHT

TO BE HAPPY THAT NIGHT



               WHITE                         


Frost on trees           

Frost on leaves

Frost in my brain

All is dead and plain.               


Frozen grass 'n rye

Frozen lake in pale light          

Frozen beauty can't die

It just changed to white.


Your white breath

Your white smile

Your white myth

Your white finesse

Your white style

Your white wile

Your white hug

Shoot Spring in my blood.


Ice frills my window

Ice kills my scarecrow "Lee"

Ice fills my eye

Makes me die - slowly


Cold rivers lie dead

Feverish shivers run cold

There you come my only sun

That drowns the fevers and thaws the mold.


Your hot breath

Your hot smile

Your hot myth

Your hot finesse

Your hot style

Your hot wile

Your hot tears

Melt all my fears.


Hard grounds cut into my sores

Hard winds stab into my eyes

Come with that look of yours

And soothe my demise...


Your soft breath

Your soft smile

Your soft myth

Your soft finesse

Your soft quests

Your soft rite

Your soft breasts

wish I'd frozen it all to white...


To keep it forever for my delight.


  HERO          

                           

You wanna be a star…

Always in front of the camera

One day being the lover

The other the killer –

Posing on the cover

Of The Rolling Stone.


Hysterical fans in ecstasy

Flashing their chests sensually

Blood filling the mush pit rapidly

While you with an angry face ALONE

're posing on the cover

Of The Rolling Stone.


You wanna be an American Idol –

Steal that American title

From the American poor

Who receive less and deserve more

American attention

Than American you American whore.


I WANNA BE A HERO

WANNA FIGHT FOR MY LAND AND MY QUEEN

WHO I HAVEN'T SEEN IN SUCH A LONG, LONG TIME

WANNA FIGHT TO THE DEATH WITHOUT SURRENDERING

WANNA KICK ASS, NO JUDGMENT PENDING

WANNA BE THE LAST MAN...

WANNA BE THE LAST MAN...

WANNA BE THE LAST MAN STANDING.


You wanna make it big on Wall Street

Vouchering off the blood-steaming meat

Making millions with a click

Quickly learned the well known trick

No matter if the tick

Means the out of an entire work fleet.


You wanna be a real estate lord

Posting your smirk on a big billboard

Over Sunset Boulevard

Picking the bones from the riches' meal

And waiting to seal

The next multi million dollar deal.


You wanna be a hedge fund manager  

A real life damager

Getting rich off other people's dough

No ass to be kissed 's hanging too low

Using their money

To buy another honey

Using their dough

Oh - that's the way to go.


You wanna be like Donald Trump

Who's got big mouth

And a lot of pomp

And a 58-story house – called Tower

Fifty states are not enough  

got the power to play it rough

What doesn't kill you makes you tough

Who cares about Pablo, Joe Doe and Mustafa.



I WANNA BE A HERO

WANNA FIGHT FOR MY LAND AND MY QUEEN

WHO I HAVEN'T SEEN IN SUCH A LONG, LONG TIME

WANNA FIGHT TO THE DEATH WITHOUT SURRENDERING

WANNA KICK ASS, NO JUDGMENT PENDING

WANNA BE THE LAST MAN...

WANNA BE THE LAST MAN...

WANNA BE THE LAST MAN STANDING.


Even if I die

I won't die in vain.

He was a hero, they will claim

He fought for us

When we stood paralyzed and numbed

He went out and kicked ass – for us.


He is dead now, he died for us –

But he is a hero

That's what they will say –

He died for us, YEAH...


I WANNA BE A HERO...   CHORUS - to End.


         Time to Be          

                         

They crossed the line

Thrust to crush the spine

They dropped their sign

With the evil design


Went to London, to Paris

Called up their basis

That's where they crossed the line


They swayed media and masses

Spread terror and fear

Not only in Paris

They're here.


They're here and again

On an eternal campaign

To capture total domain

With a doctrine insane  


They infest our brains

Bring terror and pains

Replace hope with fears

Laughter with tears  -


They caught the media's ear

Spread terror another year

Not only in Paris

They're here.


Then it's time to come out

Time to step up            

It's time to act, to shout out loud

To join the club

And be a man of the men                         

Who fight over and again  

To get rid of that clan

Yes, to be that man.  


They're here and everywhere

In every street in every square

Lie low and stay aware

For the moment when it's there


For the moment reaching its crest

Ready to launch the horrid despair

Like a virus spreading fast

And prepare at last

For war -                               

To take on the West


They'll kill our men

Enslave our women

Old and young, fragile and strong

Take our most precious ones

For their seventy virgins


God, on that day –


We'll burn like the buildings they ignite

Bleed out like cattle slaughtered at night

Die blindfolded and without a fight

Decay on the ground and in bright daylight...


So it's time to come out

Time to step up            

It's time to act, to shout out loud,

To join the club

To be a man and follow the plan

To blow them up into a mushroom cloud

To get rid of that clan

Yes, to be that man...


PIECES OF HEART – Part 2


Can't move a lash

Can't feel a limp

Can't see

Only darkness and void --

And the fire inside

And the fire inside


Wish I'd had the guts to tell 'em that day

That I'd give a damn about a degree

About career and university

If ending up here was the price I had to pay --


Wish I'd told them that day

That if going to war was the only way

For me to pay for my future –

I'd rather stayed clear off this torture


Wish I'd had the guts to tell 'em

That I'd rather labored in a coal mine

On a construction site or an assembly line

If I'd just told them...


That I'd rather become a deadbeat

Slept in the street, ate garbage and rotten meat

Than did what I've done and be condemned

Wish I'd had the guts then to tell 'em


Wish I'd had the guts...

To stand up and say no –

Before eaten by maggots

To say fuck you. Fuck you all. –


Wish I'd had the guts back then

To turn around and run

Instead of lying here... slain --


Can't move a lash  

Can't feel a limp

Can't see...

Only darkness and void --

And the fire inside...


WE R THE FREE                    


We are the great                     

Where every man has a fate          

Where every man is his own     

Every man can own a home               

Every man can become the head of state          

Cause we – are the great                    


We are the mighty

The righteous and strong

Where a man gets his right

Even if he did wrong

Where a man is innocent until proven guilty

Cause we – are the mighty.


Like Billy the bully back in school          

Who didn't ask, just made you follow his rule

He punched you in the face                         

And kicked in your teeth

And made you the fool                               

For the entire school                              


If you mess with us               

We will take you down

Eye for an eye                    

Tooth for your town               


We tear out your heart          

Eat it for reward               

If you mess with us               

We will rip you apart.          


Did you think you could scare us

Destroy us

And wear us down


Did you think you could own us

Run us

Make us believe in your crown


Did you think you could rule us

School us

Make us give in to your laws?


No, Never  - because


We are the FREE

And as righteous as can be

We will topple your leaders

Liberate those who are with us

We bring Coke and DEMOCRACY

Because we are the free.


YES, We are the free

Where a man can be - what he wants

Have kids and a spouse

Own a dog, a cat, a gun and a house

If he works hard and has a degree

Cause we are the free.


Billy the bully always won

He didn't ask he just had fun

Taking what he wanted

And if you resisted he planted

His fist in your stomach

That you coughed up your lunch and sang like a eunuch...


If you mess with us               

We will take you down

Eye for an eye                    

Tooth for your town               


We tear out your heart          

Eat it for reward               

If you mess with us               

We will rip you apart.


Pieces of Heart - Part1

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THE WARRIOR

song lyrics

ICARUS – The Fallen One

                                        

Here I lay

Crashed to the ground

Here I stay

Lone and unfound


Wings broken

Feathers burned

Pain unspoken of

The insides churned


Where're my guys

Where's the rescue team

No one's to be left alive or dead

No doubt they'll come


Am I the only one around here

Crushed onto foreign soil

Left to die alone, unsound

To rot above ground and foil?

Back home – it seems a hundred years ago

I was made the fool at school.

One day they'll back off, I thought

Mind their own stuff, I thought –

Pay their respect, I thought

Accept the fool to be tough, I thought.


One day it'll show

One day they'll all know

And then they'll say,

We went to school with him,

That fool was on the football team

After the game all girls wanted him

But he only chose the best  

And left us with the happy rest.


So I had to fly

Had to fly fast

Had to fly high

To be first

To quench the thirst

Of knowledge and fame.


Yes, I flew fast,

And so high  

That unasked,

I burst through the sky

Continued to fly

And brushed up on the sun...

No one had gone so high

No one had pierced the sky

No one had gone so far

No one had ever seen the star

Up close and personal

That magnificent terminal

Of fire and light.

Of giving life and death alright...


Here I lay

Crashed to the ground

Here I stay

Lone and unfound


Wings broken

Feathers burned

Pain unspoken of

The insides churned


The guys're gone

There's no rescue team

No one's

Gonna come.


Yes, I'm the only one around here

Crushed onto foreign soil

Left to die alone, unsound

To rot above ground and foil.


No one had gone so high

No one had pierced the sky

No one had gone so far

No one had ever seen the star

Up close and personal

That magnificent terminal

Of fire and light.

Of giving life and death alright...


No one had gone so far

No one had ever seen the star

Up close and personal

That magnificent terminal

Of fire and light

That deceiving sight

Of giving life and death

With its fiery hydrogen breath...


Sweet Fatherland

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When the Sun Goes Down

                    

When the sun goes down...

When the sun goes down,                 

I will be gone.

There'll be one last glimpse                         

At this forsaken world                    

Dying in the dark.                         

One last breath                                             

Of fresh air,

Before it becomes                          

The reek of DEATH and decay.

               

One last thought                         

One last feeling                         

Then I'll be gone -                         

And the sun goes down...                    


Will it be anger and disdain?               

Will it be hunger or despair?               

Or just this awful pain,                    

Of a body that a soul can't repair?     


Will it feel warm                          

Or cold,

Moist or dry or neither nor,

Or of something more

That just won't come.


Will I think of my mother                

Who worked for two to make ends meet

Who like no other

Protected me from bad teachers                

Kept me away from pedophile preachers          

Helped me to get on my feet


Or will I think of the father,

Who I barely knew

Who I'd rather to come home

With everything I'd do:


Like playing on the football team,

Living his young man dream

And fighting in the war.

But he never came.


Hope that my last thought will be about you,

About your eyes, your smile, your light,

About the way you said my name

And whispered yes,

When I asked you to stay

That night.


About your lips, your kiss, your grips,

About the way you sighed          

And whispered please don't go

When I told you I had to... leave for war -

That night.


Please, you said –

With shivering breath.

With shivering breath

You'd said – yes --


One last glimpse,

One last breath.

One last thought

About you – how you said yes -


Then SUN go down.

          Innocence

                                

Who are we - after all these years...

Spending fighting abroad

Being on constant alert

Never without fears


Who are we after all these fights

Having put on a monster face

Living haunted days

and sleepless nights


Who are we after all the sacrifice

We had made and caused

That changed our inner laws

Froze our souls to ice


All we set out for

Was to safe and protect,

Bring justice to the bad guys,                

And freedom to the suppressed.


There's no innocence any more,

No peace of mind,

No eternal soul to find

There's no justice in war


There's no innocence any more

No video game's just a game

No car ride the same

You never know what next corner has in store


Are we the spawn of hell, ...

The angels of death?

Did we condemn life into a tiny shell        

Cause the recruitment of wrath?

Did we cause the evil to unleash?

Did we unleash the ultimate terror?

Did we raise hell to boil over?

Flood the world with eternal horror?


All we set out for

Was to safe and protect,

Bring justice to the bad guys,           

And freedom to the suppressed  


Who are we - after all these years...

Spending fighting abroad

Being on constant alert

Never without fears


Who are we after all these fights

Having put on a monster face

Living sleepless days

of nights ---


Who are we after all the sacrifice

We had made and caused

That changed our inner laws

Froze our souls to ice.




          SWEET FATHERLAND                    


O sweet and prosperous fatherland

Which we shipped out to fight a war for

Which we shipped out to defend

Ten thousand miles away or more


O sweet and generous fatherland

Where life lives on without fear

Where dreams dream on without end

Ten thousand miles away from here


Until we stop the evil flood

To the last drop of blood

Until we stop the evil flood

To the last drop of blood



In the name of your God,

You've torn our souls apart

You've spread fear and fraud,

Stabbed us deep into the heart


In the name of your God

You cut off heads on the net

Dumped our bodies, let them rot

In your streets - without regret


In the name of your God

You blew out concrete and brains  

Ambushed brave men's squads

Cut up their bloody remains


We will kill every cell, every bud  

Of that flower that got thorny weed

We will crush every flame, every stud  

Of that breed from that ugly seed

We will slay every son, every crud  

Of that clan that sunk our concrete fleet

We will tear the flesh from your bones

We will burn out your eyes with red-hot stones


Until we stop the evil flood

Until we stop the evil flood

Until we stop the evil flood

To our last drop of blood.


O sweet and prosperous fatherland

Which we shipped out to fight a war for

Which we shipped out to defend

Ten thousand miles away or more


Until we stop the evil flood

Until we stop the evil flood

Until we stop the evil flood

To our last drop of BLOOD.


All' Be Alright                         


My father used to say

be honest and work hard

My father used to say

Be smart and play your part          

Then you'll walk into the light

And all' be alright


My teacher used to say

All you need are good grades

My teacher used to say

Step out of the shades

Then you'll master all trades and sites

And all' be alright                


My priest used to say

Have faith and believe in God,

My priest used to say

Live a celibate life and study the book hard

Then you'll gain wisdom and insight

And all' be alright                


My coach used to say

Fight from your gut and with all your heart

My coach used to say

Always be ready and from the start

Then you'll be on the winning side

And all' be alright                


My lieutenant used to say

If we don't kill'em there

They'll kill us here

Therefore, my lieutenant used to say

We fight a justified war

Thus no matter where and how long we fight

All, yes all' be alright                          


All' be alright they used to say

With a smirk on their face

All' be alright they used to say

To get me off their case

But I'm still waiting for that day…

And for that night - I'm still waiting

That all' be alright - All' be alright...


          Warrior


The oldest profession of man

Since the beginning of time

With honor and glory at hand

Fighting for king and fatherland


The oldest profession of man

Since the beginning of time

With honor and glory to come

Fighting for house and spouse and kids back home


If I don't do them,

They'll do me

They won't be numb                    

And they won't plea

               

I have to be faster,

More accurate and master                        

More decisive, and still

I have to be cool                          

Always ready for the kill

Have to be sharp like a razor

Strong like a bull

Quick like laser

Cruel like shark                          

At day and night in light and in dark


We're the brave

We're the strong

We don't cave

and we ain't wrong


We fight for freedom for justice and peace

Do the dirty work and roll up the sleeves

Earn glory and fame even after death

Fight relentlessly and to the last breath


The oldest profession of man

Since the beginning of time

The honorable skill set of crushing life

With gun, sword, bare hands or knife


The oldest profession of man

These days often disgraced

Scorned, scrutinized and defaced  

When at home people feel safe...


If I don't do them,

They'll do me

They won't be numb                    

And they won't plea

               

I have to be faster,

More accurate and master                      

More decisive, and still

I have to be cool                          

Always ready for the kill

Have to be sharp like a razor

Strong like a bull

Quick like laser

Cruel like shark                          

At day and night in light and in dark


The oldest profession of man

Since the beginning of time

With honor and glory at hand

Fighting for king and fatherland...



WARRIOR'S DREAM            

I dream that I stay and you stay  

And when we wake we know it's no mistake


I dream I stay in town  

And you stay that night

And when I wake up you are still by my side

And everything just shines in a new light.


I dream I stay right here

And you stay right here with me

And when we are hot we drive out to the sea

And when we are cold we light the fire and have hot tea.


I dream that I stay

That I don't need to convey

That I'm Army strong

And that I don't need to wrong the dream of my youth...


Because the truth about the dream of my youth is you

Your kissing smile when you talk about stuff

Your laughing tears when you feel rough

You whipping hair when you make love


I dream that you did not leave, and I did not leave

And that instead we live in a place in peace


In that place I dream we live like a team

While you bake the cake, I whip the cream

You feed the fish and I cook your favorite dish

And then I wish you'd ravish me -

All night long...


I dream that I stay

That I don't need to convey

That I'm Army strong

And nobody says I was wrong.

I dream that I stayed and you stayed  

And when we did awake we knew it was no mistake


Had I stayed in town  

And had you stayed that night

Maybe you'd still be by my side

And maybe everything would be just alright


I dream that I stayed

That I didn't need to convey

That I'm Army strong

That I didn't need to wrong the dream of my youth


Because the truth about the dream of my youth – was you:

Your kissing smile when you talked about stuff,

Your laughing tears when you felt rough

You whipping hair when you made love...


I dreamed that I stayed

That I didn't need to convey

That I'm Army strong

And nobody said I was wrong.



CRUSADERS or God Almighty, Where Are Ya' Now?    


God abandoned us

We became a godless crowd

No one knows when it happened

No one knows what it's cause


Went down that road

On foot and wheel

Through fire and storm

Through hail of steel

To a place forlorn


Went down that road

Through night and eeriness

Through thunder and sorry  

Through seas of bodies

To find the place of glory  


Went down that forsaken road

Of lurking death

On an endless ride

Through unforgiving wrath

To find the place of honor and pride –


But we lost God on our side


We were the crusaders of the twenty first century

The crusaders of relentless rage

We were the crusaders of faith and liberty

The crusaders of the modern age


We became –

Somebody else's' mesh

Somebody else's threat

Somebody else's flesh

Somebody else's bet


We became –

Somebody else's tool

Somebody else's gun

Somebody else's fool

Somebody else's son


Who killed and died


And we lost God on our side

Lost God on our side


We were the crusaders of the twenty first century

The crusaders of relentless rage

We were the crusaders of faith and liberty

The crusaders of the modern age

  

God abandoned us

And we became a godless crowd

No one knows when it happened

No one knows what it's cause


God, Almighty, where are ya' now

We worshipped you every other day

Laid our heads in the dust for you

Sang songs, spoke your words in pray


Read the Book to learn your laws

Made men to priests and to confess

Made women stay childless -

to serve just you.

What did we do?


How big our sin was

To earn no forgiveness

No rebirth

No mercy


Where are you, Almighty divine

We didn't hear that bell chime

When that forsaken hour struck

That hour you ceased our luck


We were the crusaders of the twenty first century

The crusaders of relentless rage

We were the crusaders of faith and liberty

The crusaders of the modern age...

                                   


BLUES OF DEATH             


Oh lord, what if death is coming today

Oh lord, what if death is takin' me away

I'll decay on this foreign shore

And I won't be around - no more


Oh Lord what if death is waiting today

Oh Lord what if death's arrival 'll delay another day

Hope will stay to escape this gore

And I won't be around - no more


(change to fast rock)


Oh Lord,                                   

What if death ain't coming today               

What if death ain't takin' me away               

What if death is choosing another pray          

What if death will let me stay?                

I'll have to endure the endless terror,      

Endure life in screaming horror,                

Live in torture forever                


Oh Lord,                                         

What if death ain't coming at all                

What if death ain't taking me in his haul               

What if death is choosing to stall               

What if death won't let me fall               

I'll have to endure the endless terror,            

Endure life in screaming horror,                

Live in torture, live in torture - forever...


(Back to original beat - slow blues:)


Oh Lord, I'd rather death is coming today

Oh Lord, I'd rather death take me far, far away

From cries of dismay to heaven's door

And I won't be around...

won't be around

won't be around -

NO MORE.


When I'm A Spirit          


When I'm a spirit                     

Floating around                    

Between heaven and earth               

Without light and sound

Hardly finding the merit

Of what it all was worth.


When I'm a spirit               

With no flesh or bone

Diving through air and solid stone

Life now seemed like a bubble of foam…

Hardly feeling the merit

Of what I used to call home


When I'm a spirit

Shooting up to the stars

Hoping to find another universe

Where no one invades another country or faith

There I'll hardly find the merit

To look back at that place – called Earth.


THEN I'LL BE FREE --          

FROM PAIN AND MISERY

THEN I WILL BE

FINALLY FREE --


When I'm a spirit               

I won't fly as high

As Icarus who touched the sun and died

Rather stay close and keep an eye

On you and fearing the merit

Of that endless run on the other side


When I'm a spirit

On the other side

I'll meet people no one listened to in life

Whose wisdoms unheard of, ideas denied

Here I will find the merit               

To go on                                      

And on --  

A whole new ride.                            


THEN I'LL BE FREE

FROM PAIN AND MISERY.

THEN I WILL BE

FINALLY FREE –


When I'm a spirit                     

Forever floating around               

Between the stars and heaven and earth      

In the speed of light without sight and sound

Forgotten all merit

Lost in time and the universe...




PIECES OF HART - Part 3


All that is left - are

Pieces of heart

Cripples of thought

Flashes of dreams that died

And the fire inside


And the fire INSIDE.


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